Notes and sketches of one very weary traveler.

I talk a lot about being homeless, I have been for so long.  Now, I've started school, and it appeared that everything was going to be okay, I just moved into an apartment with a guy who was looking for a roommate...what he failed to mention was that he already owed the landlord over $2000, and he today recieved a three-days-to-pay-or-leave notice.

I feel sick.  I've nowhere left to go, I've no one to turn to. My money has been spent on tution and books--an attempt to make a better life for myself.  Seems it's not to be.  I do not relish the idea of trying to attend school while living in my tiny Geo in the school parking lot and returning to the dumpsters for what food I can find.  I make almost $200 month working, but I don't get paid until November.

I fear I've done something horrible to someone, somewhere, sometime and am unawares, unable to make amends and set my own path right.  Afraid it'll always be like this for me, and I am so very, very very tired of fighting at every turn for every scrap of life beyond mere existance that I can scrape from the universe.  Say I give up. It would be nice to rest a while.

Dear God,
  WHY!!

P.S. ....why is Equus still in production?  I had a rash of horrible nightmares after I saw the show initialy, and now it has returned to haunt me tenfold.

I know that I have yet to write anything of any real consequence, I've just been quite busy.  Does that really matter, as no one reads this anyway?  Ah well.  Just to let anyone who might browse this know, my birthday is a week from tomorrow. None of your business how old I'll be, but I will admit to having a bit of grey hair.  If you love me, you'll buy me this book for my birthday!

Cheers!

This is one of the best movies I've ever seen. It did what all my favorite movies do--opened up that child-like sense of wonder I still carry around with me. It felt very much more Niel Gaiman than M. Night Shayamalan, but I was fine with that. The characters are interesting and strange--like real people, and the story is--well, since it did in fact start as a bedtime story he was telling his kids, it's still a bedtime story. I don't think I've enjoyed a film this much since I saw What Dreams May Come. It's just one of those films that makes me sit back and stare and smile a little and whisper "Wow."

I visited the human society today to volunteer my time to walk and care for the doggies there, and while I was there, I met this beautiful girl named Kelsey.  She's very sweet and loving, very un-barky. Her eyes are both brown, but the bottom quarter of her left eye is blue!  I would adopt this wonderful pup myself, but I'm not currently renting a place that allows for larger dogs. I hope she finds a home quite soon.  If you're in the Spokane area, think about her, won't you!  You can see more about Kelsey here